So after our good weight check appointment yesterday, Zoey decided she didn’t want to eat well. Actually, I think maybe she had a bit of an upset tummy. At her evening feed, she projectile vomited an entire bottle! Poor little girl. Over the night we fed her smaller amounts and she hasn’t gotten sick since then. I felt so bad for her that it brought me to tears. I know my postpartum hormones aren’t helping with that but I’m noticing I am a lot easier moved to tears than before. At our first doctor’s appointment last Monday, everyone was doting about how adorable she was and even that alone was making me all teary eyed.

Last night was a little bit rough for me. I was really, really exhausted and was having a hard time being up and taking care of Zoey. Luckily I got Gene up both times she was up to help me out. I noticed that when I got up the second time, I wasn’t feeling well at all. My head was pounding and I felt kind of dizzy. Maybe that had something to do with it?

Doing well here today. Just got a shower and feeling GREAT after that. Gene is taking such wonderful care of both of us and I am going to be so sad when he has to go back to work. I’m trying not to think about it and hope that time slows down a little bit.

I tried to sleep in our bed for my afternoon nap today and it was wonderful to sleep on my side again! However, when I got up, it was still really uncomfortable so it looks like we’re going to stay camped out in our living room for the time being. Whenever I get up from the bed, it feels like a really sore “ball” (I’m guessing this is my uterus) is floating around inside of me and it hurts when it moves around. I think once that heals up some more, it will be a lot easier.

Well, time to figure out what we’re doing for dinner. This morning I had toast with orange juice and it was amazingly! And then for lunch we had leftover pizza from last week.

I realize that is quite a lame thing to write a list about. But I’m really feeling tired right now and that is the only thing I can bring to mind. I don’t know if I mentioned here or not but I’ve stopped drinking caffeine. Now, I do sneak in a glass of iced tea here and there but I did stop drinking regular diet sodas. I’m only drinking caffeine free ones now and it sucks because NO ONE carries a caffeine free variety. I’m sure before I turned into a caffeine snob I would have thought it was ridiculous for McDonald’s to carry a caffeine free diet coke. But now? Oh how I wish they had that option!

I stopped drinking caffeine for two reasons. First of all, caffeine does nothing for me. So luckily I haven’t experienced any obvious caffeine withdrawal symptoms. So what is the point of drinking all of this caffeine that is bad for me, if it really has no effect? The second reason I stopped is because I really want to have a baby and I’ve read so many negative things about caffeine regarding fertility and also pregnancy. So why not get a head start? It seems as though when I am at my tiredest and I really want to go get a pop, all I have to do is grab a caffeine free Diet Coke or Diet Dr. Pepper and it does the trick. I think my body wakes up from that ice cold, bubbly feeling that I get when I sip on a soda. I think the caffeine has just had no effect on me, at all.

So.. here I am on my second cycle since I stopped taking birth control. I’d absolutely love to be pregnant right now but at the same time, it wouldn’t be the end of the world if I wasn’t. I worry alot about getting pregnant. After reading through so many blogs of women who had fertility problems over the last 5 or more years, I’ve become quit the Paranoia Queen. You never know you have a problem until you start trying. And I’m twenty six years old! I realize that is still young but in my head I feel like I am getting older. I don’t want to be popping out babies in my late thirties. I wanna be done by then! So we’ll see..

Whatever you do, send me lots of fertility vibes. I’ll need them :) Now… time to go attempt to make babies.. That’s the best part, right? The trying? Hee hee.

• An evening walk to the snow cone place with the hubby
• Hubby walked “on the outside” of me *swoon* (Flight of the Conchord reference here)
• Sugar Free Tiger’s Blood snow cone with extra gummy bears
• My desk at work is clean
• Guacamole for lunch
• Evening thunderstorms and rain while playing my Nintendo DS Lite, which is pink, by the way
• Showered and in my jammies by 8:30 PM

I’m really starting to remember what it is like to be a teenager again thanks to my good ol’ pal Hormones. See, Hormones and I had a pretty balanced relationship over the last 7 years or so. But I went and got rid of The Pill because I figured three was a crowd, right? But apparently Hormones is mad now and taking revenge by forcing acne to show up in the most awkward places ever.

But let’s get to the more important and fun stuff, shall we?

Gene and I completely lost our minds on Thursday and we purchased a teevee that is so ridiculously big and expensive that I thought I would tear up a little when I signed the credit card receipt. I can safely say that it is worth about 3 mortgage payments and the thought alone kind of freaks me out a little bit. It’s beautiful, though :) Our new baby is a 47″ LCD tv. I also purchased a new tv stand to go with it because.. if you’re going to spend that much money, why not splurge a little? Plus, we wanted something safe for our new baby to rest on :D And the picture next to this demonstrates our new found love. (P.S. the tv did not come with an Asian, as the picture may suggest. I had to go out and get that on my own, but even if it did come with one.. I would have totally returned it because I like my Asian the best of them all :D)

So we’ve been “working” on our spare bathroom. I have yet to take pictures of it, at all. And I totally forgot to take before pictures, so the only pictures we’ll have are the ones we took when we first moved in. We have it painted but have yet to do any touch up on the paint. Once the touch up is done, I can start putting the new hardware up. I need to go buy a new light fixture for it and my next big project in there is to sand the wood on the baseboards/door frame and re stain it. The people who owned it before us apparently never understood what painter’s tape is for and I need to fix all of their boo boos.

Other than that, not much going on. Just working around the house and having as much fun as possible when we can. We went to the Oklahoma State Fair last night as a kind of spur of the moment decision and we had a pretty good time walking around. Gene and I were pretty annoyed because apparently just having rides and scary carnies isn’t enough, so now they’ve gone super classy and brought in a few “circus freak” acts. I felt so horrible for these people. Just a quick rundown of the acts:

• World’s Smallest Woman – Advertised as a Real Live woman that is only 29 inches tall. You had to pay $1 to walk through to see her. Malinda went through and she said there was a woman that was about 2 1/2 feet tall sitting there, listening to her ipod while people walked through, staring at her. Can you imagine being in this situation? Sitting there for 12-15 hours a day while people pay to walk through and stare at you and your “freakness” ?
• Snake Woman – I can’t remember the exact name of this one. It was advertised as this woman that has no arms and no legs, a beautiful face and the body of an ugly snake. They repeated body of an ugly snake about 50 million times on the automated advertising thing and it was really disgusting that they can even act like this. Again, it was $1 to walk up and see the woman. However, on the advertisement it did mention an “illusion” a few times so I was a little skeptical on the realness of this.
• World’s Smallest Horse – This was advertised as a tiny horse that is no taller than the bales of hay they had (only stacked one high) on this platform. It said it was a real live horse and an adult, and not a miniature pony. Malinda paid to go see this one and what she found was they had the platform lowered where the bales of hay were so there was actually a horse in there that was a few feet tall. So technically, it WOULD have been taller than the bales of hay. Again, stupid.

I guess the best part of the State Fair this year was that I was in good company. I had Malinda, Gene and my little sister with me. There was a ton of laughter and that always makes for a good time. When we were leaving, it was well after 11 PM and everything was closing down. We walked by a food stand and I heard a boy shout “Half Price” and I swear I thought I heard him say half price french fries.. And being the french fry lover that I am, I stopped immediately and turned around and say “Huh?” and the older man in the stand shouted “Half Price Sausages” and we all immediately began cracking up. Typed up, it doesn’t seem as funny. I guess you would have to be there. But I mean.. Isn’t it funny anywhere you go and there is a man yelling “Half Price Sausages” ?

Well, I am sick and ready for bed. Yesterday at the fair I made a joke when we turned down the street that holds the majority of the food stands about how there should be a Biohazard Warning before you enter that area. We were walking down that street and I felt like the grease, smoke and trash was all sticking to my skin and absorbing into my blood. I then made a comment about State Fair Disease and Cancer. And wouldn’t you know, I had a horrible sore throat by time we got home from the fair and I’ve been pretty miserable all day today. Sore throat, congested, runny nose, sneezing, nauseous, dizzy… the whole bit! So, I think it’s time to get ready for bed, shower and then maybe a movie.

Well, I think that is all I am going to post about today. I am feeling ill and need to rest. Gene and I are going on a hot date (crutches included) to the dollar movies this evening. Seriously though, how long after Reconstructive Knee Sugery w/Allografts can you do the deed, if you know what I mean?? I know I sound like a 13 year old boy here but.. work with me people!

Ehh.. just silly hormones talkin’, I know. Heck, I’m not even married yet :) And from the looks of things, I may not be married until Spring of 2008. And I want to be “ready” when we decide to have a baby. I want to be financially ready. But, when will we ever be “ready”? I guess when we both decide that is what we want. We both know that we DO for sure want children but I guess getting the timing right is the main thing. I had a nightmare a few nights ago that my doctor told me that since I’ve been on birth control pills for over 3 years that it would take over 3 years to clean out myself and become fertile again. As crazy as it sounds, I woke up in quite a panic! Silly, I know. Like I said, hormones.

I’m gonna go do something other than sit here and read and dream and increase my chances of severe carpal tunnel syndrome later on down the road. I know dishes need to be done and dogs need to be petted. Oh and I totally need to do some weight lifting and leg exercises today. My knee is feeling a little bit better. Gene and I are going to sign up for Gym memberships this week sometime. Today was our 3rd weigh in since January 1st when our Biggest Loser competition began. So far, I’ve lost 10.5 lbs since January 1st :) I am at my all time lowest weight right now, which honestly, is not that low at all!