I failed. Miserably.

So I’m going in Monday morning for the 4 hour test. Oh yay! I’m dreading the fact that I have to fast after midnight the night before and then somehow try to function (without my sweet, life saving saltines) for 4 hours after I get up in the morning. Oh I’m also dreading the fact that they are going to have to FIND a vein 4 different times within’ a 4 hour period. Do you know how long and how much trouble she had trying to find the ONE vein last time? A LOT.

I’m torn between deciding whether I should get a new OBGYN or not. I’m not happy with my OBGYN’s nurse. The OBGYN herself is fine but the nurse? She is a mean, mean lady. She actually, in her own words, said I “tanked it” when she referred to my high blood sugar level. I don’t know if I mentioned this yet or not but I am a FRAGILE PREGNANT SOUL. My emotions CANNOT be toyed with right now!

So I haven’t decided what I’m going to do yet. I need to decide soon because the OB already sent me paperwork telling me what my monthly payments to her would be and also when to start mailing my payments to them. I thought having a baby was all sunshine and rainbows?? What? I was mistaken?

This weekend, Gene and I will start our car shopping. I’m kind of hoping we have a new car by the end of this month but I’m not going to hold my breath on that. We’re going to look at the Honda CR-V and see what kind of deal we can get on that and the financing. Luckily I married a WONDERFULLY smart boy who is going to take care of all of this so that his Sweet, Amazing pregnant wife does not get overly stressed out. Because of the baby. Don’t want the baby to be too stressed. What? Lime sized fetus’ can get stressed. Seriously.

After that, I plan to rest and learn about low carb diets. All of these good and bad carbs really confuse me. I just wanna EAT stuff, dangit. Oh and I might even do some sewing. Might work on making some burp cloths and POSSIBLY work on finishing my quilt.

Wait a second… Did I mention that my sinuses still hurt? THEY DO. They’re awful. It comes and goes. Last night I was in horrible pain and had to go to bed at 7:30 PM. Yes, I HAD to. And then this morning they were fine so I figured it was just a small flare up. But over the course of the day, it has become unbearable again. I hate these stupid sinuses!! I haven’t scheduled a doctor’s appointment because everytime I think about it, THEY ARE NOT HURTING ME. And then 3 hours later? BAM! Horrible pain again.

Growing up means…

• Being responsible for my own laundry. If I slack off, I end up with nothing to wear. Those days are the ones that really hit me hard. Where’s mom to do my laundry every Tuesday? Maybe it’s time to start a laundry schedule.
• Feeding my doggies twice a day. Remembering to refill their water bowl. They’re living things that I have to take care of. Worrying about them if they’re ill. Taking them to the vet for their shots. Being the sole care giver for them.
• Making sure Gene and I have something to eat for dinner every night. And lunch on the weekends. And breakfast. This is something I constantly struggle with because by time I get home from work every night, I am exhausted.
• Keeping up with the dishes so that we have clean silverware and plates and cups to eat and drink out of. Besides, who likes a stinky sink full of dirty dishes?
• Taking control of a pesky rodent problem in our home. When I lived at home? I never had to even worry about this kind of thing. Dad always took care of these types of problems! But now I have to step it up and actually take care of it myself or else my house will be overrun with mice. Cute little furry grey mice. That I’ll eventually kill. It’s sad. But seriously? They have like fifty kajillion babies every year so I don’t need those things multiplying.
• Always worrying about money. Always. Paying bills on time. Insurance copays. Insurance deductibles. Prescriptions. Groceries. Car repairs. Gas. Utilities. A new fence. Hemorrhaging money. All the time.
• Keeping track of dates! This is the WORST thing for me. Mom always kept track of my activities, what papers I had due and when, what birthday parties I needed to go to and when, and whether or not I had showered in the last 48 hours. Now? I have no idea. I keep it all in my trusty little Blackjack II. But sometimes I forget to put it in there. And sometimes I don’t show up to things that I said I would. Oops.
• Mowing yards. Planting flowers. Basic home upkeep that I never once had to worry about previously.

There is more of course. But those are just a few things that come to mind. I guess the biggest thing of all is knowing that I have vowed and have a responsibility to myself and to Gene to take care of both of us until death do us part. To care for him when he is ill and to be as understanding as possible whenever we aren’t in agreement. I wont lie, there are days where I just want to do whatever I want to do and not have to worry about anything or anyone else. But in all honesty, those days are few and far between. I rarely find myself longing for that kind of independence. I love taking care of Gene and I love caring for him. It gives me purpose and makes me feel good about myself and what I’m doing with my life.

So.. Growing up isn’t so bad. Right? I mean, the car repairs and bills and groceries and dishes aren’t the greatest things ever. And neither is the whole Job thing. But it’s worth it in the end.

The only word to describe my thoughts is: PISSED. I started checking all the crevices of the car to see where THE NOTE IS. You know what I’m talkin’ about here.. The NOTE THAT YOU LEAVE WHEN YOU HIT SOMEONES CAR BAD ENOUGH TO CAUSE THIS KIND OF DAMAGE. The one that NICE people with COMMON COURTESY would leave. Does GOOD CITIZEN ring any bells here?

So we have no note. No nothing. We called insurance. Since Gene’s car is on it’s 857th life, we can’t really do much. We called the police and they came out to look at it. They asked the lady across the street if she knew anything and then when her husband got home she told him that she thought we suspected it was them. So he rang our doorbell to tell us they didn’t hit us. I tried to explain to him that we in no way suspected them at all. I mean, they are seriously like The Nicest People Ever in The Universe.

Why do these people do stupid stuff like this? They had to have been backing out or driving fast enough to cause METAL TO CHANGE FORM. This does not happen EASILY. You can’t bend metal by backing out of a driveway at 5 miles per hour or less. I am still really enraged. Trying to calm down here! And boy I’ll tell ya, it is not easy to have faith in the human race and people these days in general when stuff like this happens. How do you trust anyone anymore? I honestly just don’t know.

This is the kind of crap we have to deal with as we grow up. Growing up stinks, sometimes!

I also found the matching stainless steel refrigerator that I want. Yeah, it’s $2,000 but it sure is fine! And it would look OH SO SEXY sitting in the same room as its brethren. Someday… Someday!

I don’t know if I ever mentioned it but about 4 months ago our oven passed away. It was really sad and I was and still am quite angry with it for just going like that. I mean, we just bought this house last May and not even 6 months later it bites the dust? Pretty rude if you ask me!

Thanks to Home Depot, we may be getting that beauty over there on your left. Thanks to their credit card, the 12 months no interest and the 10% sale right now! We went in store and looked at it this afternoon and it is just as pretty as it looks in the picture, if not better. The only problem we have run into is that the oven in our house right now is a drop-in oven and we really want to purchase a slide-in one. There will be some wood cutting and tile cutting to get this new bad boy in but I am determined to do it!

So hopefully this time next week I will be baking delicious dishes in my new oven.

Because if I have to cook one more thing in my TOASTER OVEN it will not be a pretty sight!

So I decided to go to my doctor to try to start treating this awful thing that has plagued me. I was diagnosed approximately six years ago. They said Degenerative Disc Disease and I cried. I went to Physical Torture for quite a while and I even had an epidural to help with the pain. I had a horrendous experience with the epidural and never went back. I eventually stopped going to therapy because my pain got better and I began to slack off on it.

Now I am back to square one. I had an MRI done a few weeks ago that showed a “bulging disc” so I went to a specialist yesterday morning to talk about my issues. He explained that my L5 is degenerative and that I need to start going to Physical Torture. He showed me all of my brightly colored discs in my spine and then pointed out the L5 (very lower back) that was 100% black :( I know my eyes got teary several times throughout that visit. Mostly because it isn’t one of those things that you’ll eventually get over. It’s something that I’m going to live with, for the rest of my life.

Most of my pain is in my lower, left back. When I sit for too long, I have shooting pain in my left buttock. Sometimes it even shoots down my left leg. When I walk too long, I have shooting pain and numbess in my left leg. And if I do too much physical activity (cleaning, lifting, bending over, walking) I will pay for it, severely, the next day. It is so difficult because I am a pretty active person and I like to be on the go. I think the thought of this stupid thing holding me back from doing things in my life is what scares me the most.

I’m going to try to be good this time and actually go to therapy. I need to call my insurance to see if they are going to work with me on this. I still owe SO much money to the surgeon, physical therapist and hospital from my knee surgery that piling up more medical bills for my back makes me want to burst into tears. So far my experience with “growing up” has been awful and I am totally up for a do-over :/

Today, Gene and I trimmed up the ginormous tree in the front yard. Spent a few hours out there working on it. Got most of it taken care of but there are some parts that we are too scared to cut down in fear that it will collapse the fence.  We’re trying to get these trimmed back because the roofer is scheduled to install the new roof sometime later this week. I also got up and mowed the yard at around 10:30 this morning. The grass needs a lot of TLC to bring it back to life. It’s not completely dead but some parts have been taken over by weeds and some of it just isn’t as thick as it should be.

Anyway, its the little things. Today Gene and I went to Walmart to buy a few neccessities. We bought 2 battery smoke detectors to protect us until we get the alarm system installed. Also got a Carbon Monoxide detector, a fire extinguisher, a shower massage for the spare bedroom and a bug proof light bulb for the porch.  I think thats all we got.. I don’t know.. but I do know that we spent $70 on it. Ugh.

Anyway I guess thats all I have to say for now. I need to go fold / hang laundry and maybe go chill out on the couch for a while. Peace :D

Having a few slight issues with the new house. Things that, of course, will get better over time. But the girl who rented this house before we bought it had 5 cats. FIVE. And I’m allergic to a single cat, so you can imagine how great it has been for me. I don’t show my typical allergy symptoms, I just… out of nowhere, have an asthma attack. I’ll be fine and then feel my lungs starting to close up and then it begins. Crazy stuff. My body will get used to it eventually, I’m sure.

Anyway, I’m gonna go take a shower and sleep. We gotta be at my mom’s house at 9:30 tomorrow morning to go out of town. I’d much rather stay and spend time in my house but we have family coming in from out of state that we never get to see and I really want to see them. So anyway.. thats the heads up on what is going on. I’ll write more when I actually have time. The next week will be spent finishing the move, cleaning the other house, unpacking and getting ready for a brand spankin’ new roof on Friday :D

We’ve gone back and forth over this home buying ordeal over the last several weeks and we are finally at our final decision. The home inspection was a bust and we found out that the house needed a new roof before any insurance company would insure it. Other than that, most repairs seem somewhat minor and we plan on fixing all of the things on that list over the next few years before we want to turn around and sell it.  Anyway so our closing date is the 24th, next Thursday at 4:00 PM. I’m taking off work at 2 so I can come home and do some breathing exercises. I’m a little nervous and I want everything to go smoothly. The first part of this week is going to drag by, I can already tell.

We have to get a contract with a roofer signed before closing in order for us to get our insurance policy. Tomorrow I plan on getting the last of the estimates and by the end of the day on Tuesday Gene and I need to have our decision made on who to go with so that I can get the contract signed and faxed over to the insurance company. I really hope everything goes smoothly at closing because most of the roofing contracts I’ve signed have a 10% cancellation fee and when you have an estimate for $4,300, 10% is actually QUITE a lot of money :(

Anyway I could really go on and on but I don’t feel like it. Other things on my checklist are change of address cards at the post office, transfer utilities and gas to new house, transfer cox (cable, phone, internet) to new house and call the Pest guy to come out and spray for pests. Maybe sometime later this month or in June I will go splurge on some paint and paint the house. I want to use mostly neutral colors. One of the bedrooms is already painted a warm orange/red color and it is awesome so I plan on leaving that room the way it is. On the Master Bedroom and the guest bedroom I want to paint neutral colors with some kind of technique. I haven’t decided yet!

I guess I am pretty excited about owning our own home. A home that we can say is OURS. Money is going to be RIDICULOUSLY tight for quite a while after we move. It sucks that it has to be that way but like most situations we are in, there have been some pretty big curveballs thrown our way. We will make it through. We have the basic staples to survive and I plan on doing some garage saling to find some unique/cheap art. Also hit up some flea markets and thrift stores.

Anyway.. I would appreciate it if you guys would keep your fingers crossed for us. And I should be back sometime after Memorial Day weekend. I am not sure when Cox will be able to transfer our services to the new place and when I will have time to actually sit down at the computer again but hopefully sometime after the 28th.

We are getting SO much packed but boy is it taking time. I’ve got about 15-20 boxes of stuff packed and quit a bit more to pack up. I just finished packing 80% of my computer desk. It took 2 boxes and I think it may take another 1/2 box or so. I swear we have SO much stuff! And so much of it that I absolutely refuse to get rid of. I like moving because you always have to go through all of your crap and then you realize exactly how much you have but at the same time, it is SO hard to part with some of your stuff. Especially he sentimental stuff.

I have this great vision of our new home being totally organized and clean and “homely” feeling but I always do that and it always ends up a crazy mess once we move in, lol. I am so thankful that we are moving barely a mile from our current residence. I can’t imagine moving any further than that right now. We would need the biggest darn uhaul they make :/ I am just very thankful that I have a friend who has a truck and my parent’s who both have SUVs. It makes moving so much easier! Thanks Malinda and Mom and Dad.. I love you guys so much! :heart:

I am gonna go kick Astro’s butt. He wont quit growling at nothing. I also wanted to say that I had Sushi for dinner and it was freakin’ delicious. Tomorrow is the downtown Edmond Arts Festival and you can bet your shiney boots that I’ll be there grubbin’ on some indian taco :D Yay for fried bread!