So, after 2 weeks straight of awful pain, I am starting to feel a smidgen of relief today. I’ve been holed up in this house for 2 weeks and have spent the majority of it in my bed. I haven’t been able to actively play with Zoey and I’ve had trouble just caring for her basic needs like diaper changes and feeding. It has been an emotionally challenging 2 weeks that I do not wish to ever re-live.

So my spine is curved, my pelvis is tilted, my L3, L4 and L5 are degenerating. Sunday was possibly one of the worst days I’ve had so far. I stayed in bed almost all day and cried on and off almost all afternoon. I was so depressed and felt so hopeless. I literally felt like I would probably be in this pain for the rest of my life and that I had no reason to even keep on fighting it. I wanted to give up so badly. Monday morning I called my Chiropractor first thing in the morning, crying my eyes out and telling him over the phone that I couldn’t take it anymore. Gene came home from work and took me to Urgent Care where I received a cortizone injection in my hip and a steroid pack, I then went to have an MRI done of my lower back and then went by my Chiro’s office to have an adjustment.

This morning I went to my Chiro for an adjustment and he gave me the findings of the MRI. The radiologist said I have dehydrated discs in the lower part of my back, that I have the beginnings of arthritis in my lower back, that my discs are degenerating and bulging and that there appears to be a cyst on the lower part of my spine. BUT, the upper part of my back is in great shape and there is plenty of fluid in those discs! So yay for that, I guess?

Anyway, the good news is that there are no ruptured discs, I don’t need to even THINK about surgery at this point and that the chiropractor is positive that he can get me better. I’m going in for adjustments 4 times a week right now, I’m doing stretches at home, icing it as often as possible and trying to take it easy. I’m trying to change from walking, sitting to laying every hour so that I’m not stuck in one position for too long.

Today has been the BEST day I’ve had in two very long and depressing weeks. I’ve been able to play with Zoey and hold her a little easier. I’ve been able to put her in and get her out of her Jumperoo (she loves that thing!). I was even able to make myself some popcorn for a late lunch. The best part of it all is that I have not cried a single tear today. And that my friend, is what I call progress!

It feels good to be myself again. I am far from being totally recovered. I am still in a LOT of pain. More pain that I would EVER wish on someone. But I am slowly but surely getting there and today I have HOPE. Which I have been lacking for a couple of weeks now. I even opened the window blinds today because I wanted to see the sunshine.

Zoey is doing wonderful! She can sit up for a short time on her own. She is laughing more and she loves both her Jumperoo and the play gym. She loves to play peek-a-boo and loves when I “eat her tummy” and “eat her stinky feet.” She is going to be 6 months old in a couple of weeks and we’ll be starting solids soon. Right now she eats about 6oz every 3 hours during the day and still sleeps for about 12 hours a night.