Pregnancy and Weight Gain

I am having one of those mornings where I just can’t get my tummy to be satisfied. I eat something and then 30 minutes later it is growling again. And I’m not exactly eating bad things for me, either. I’m eating the same things that normally would fill me up. I guess it’s time to start chuggin’ the water, huh?

I got up and had a packet of Banana Bread Weight Control oatmeal, 1 C. of skim milk and 1 small banana around 6:15 AM. Here it is 8 AM and I just ate a 100 calorie english muffin with about 1 TBSP of peanut butter on it. And I am STILL wanting more food. I hate that!

I’ve gained a little bit of weight in this pregnancy, more than I “should” according to my doctor. She actually wanted me to lose weight during this pregnancy. Hah. Ooops. It’s not like I’ve been stuffing my face. And honestly, I have no idea where the weight gain is coming from. My diet really hasn’t changed at all over the last few months and for some reason every time I go in every 2 weeks, I have either maintained or gained 2-4lbs. Not sure what is up with that, honestly. And all I can do is just tell myself going into my appointments that she is going to complain to me about my weight gain and I can just sit there and ignore her.

The thing is, I KNOW I’ve gained weight. And I’m pretty sure it bothers me more than it bothers her. All I can do is set goals for myself after Zoey arrives and work hard to achieve them. I have big plans to get back on my diet after she is here and start exercising more.

Speaking of exercise, it has become really difficult to do. Even walking has become SO uncomfortable that I dread it. I’ve been carrying Zoey really low through this entire pregnancy and as she grows, it gets increasingly difficult to walk and feel comfortable. It hurts my hips and makes me feel like I have to empty my bladder after just 5 minutes of walking.

I’ve had no real complaints about being pregnant and I’ve enjoyed my special time with my daughter but I am honestly ready for her to be here. I am only 35 weeks today but I am to the point where I want her here so I can move on with my life, start losing some weight and feel comfortable doing normal things like walking again. I’m sure I’ll regret saying that in a year when she is having her first birthday party and I’m wondering where time went and start devising a plan to revert her to infancy.

One more side note that is more for me than for anyone else: We hate our doctor! She did something recently that is extremely private that I can’t really go into detail about but it is something that no doctor should ever do. Anyway, so Gene and I are sticking with her because we only have 3-5 weeks left of this to endure. It would be a huge mess to switch doctor’s this late in the game, especially since we have already paid her. Anyway, I trust her to deliver my baby safely and that is all that matters to us at this point. We’ll go see her once a week until the baby is here, which means I should only have to see her 6 more times at most, which includes delivery. It has definitely been a learning experience!