So yesterday we went to tour a hospital nearby but every single room was full in the maternity ward. We got to walk around, see the nursery, see the surgery room for c-sections and get a little information on how the hospital works. We plan to go back one weekend when they have a room available so we can see inside one of the birthing rooms. I feel confident that we’ll go with this hospital and I’m hoping to fill out pre-registration forms within’ the month.
We went in for my monthly OBGYN appointment yesterday. I’m currently about 17 weeks 4 days and they still couldn’t find the heartbeat with the doppler. I think she had it at one point but then lost it. So we did get to see the little ninja on ultrasound. It was hard to see him/her, but it was nice to see the head, body and spine. The doctor mentioned something about if he/shew as still in this position by next Wednesday then there is no way they will be able to find out the sex and tell me what it is. Kind of a bummer. I’m hoping she’s wrong but I’m worried that she is right.
She also brought up the Gestational Diabetes thing and then went on to say she thinks I am Type 2 diabetic and it’s not actually Gestational at all. Whatever. My numbers are pretty good.. I haven’t been very good at taking them regularly so I’m promising myself to get back on track with pricking my finger and be more consistent with it.
Every time we go in, we talk about diabetes and pregnancy and controlling my weight gain and I leave a little bit depressed. It’s always fun to go see the baby and know that I am one month closer to meeting my little one but at the same time, it is hard on my nerves when all we talk about are all of my problems or potential risks. Don’t get me wrong, I am glad she is trying to help me out and inform me of all the risks associated with it. But at the same time, I just want someone to tell me NOT to worry and that I’m doing great and that our baby has a good chance of being perfectly healthy. I guess one good thing is that we will get MANY ultrasounds due to this diabetes situation. She said I will probably have a “BIG” ultrasound at least once a month until the baby is born.
I also apparently gained 5 lbs from my last appointment. However, I am still UNDER the weight I was back when I first went in at 8 weeks. I don’t know if that is good or bad? The doctor wants me to MAINTAIN or lose over the next 5 months but not to gain anything more. Trust me, I don’t wanna gain anymore either. But I am going to have to work my ass off to eat the right things and exercise more. She told me some stories about babies that were born that had breathing problems due to a diabetic mom and that they had to be in the NICU for a week.. And can I just say that I did NOT need to hear that? I have been nothing but worried since then.
A lot of my frustration is probably having to do with hormones. Over the last two days I’ve cried at least 3 times. Over silly things, I’m sure. But in my hormone induced state, I find them as very important things that upset me. It takes one tiny thing to cause me to burst into tears. I hope it passes soon because I am already frustrated and annoyed and stressed out beyond belief from all of this emotional nonsense.
3 Comments
Josi on December 4, 2008 at 12:01 pm.
You are doing fine! I am 15w with GD and really, I think doctors like to pick on the fat girls. I’m so glad I have a doctor with diabetes himself so he’s not nearly as hard on me as others I have known. He knows that elevated levels, like a whopping 145 two hours after meals is NOT something to rush to the hospital about or start threatening that our babies will be anything but healthy screaming, pooping, loving beings. Please try to not let your doctor take away the joy that is your pregnancy no matter how good her intentions are.
Also, I hear you on the crying. I watched Jay & Silent Bob Do Degrassi last night and teared up when Kevin Smith caught the prom queen. Freaking ridiculous!
Laura on December 4, 2008 at 7:01 pm.
I have to say your doctor doesn’t sound very supportive. I know it is their job to make sure your pregnancy and baby is as healthy as possible, but keeping you worried and afraid all the time isn’t the right way to motivate you. (Has your doctor ever been pg herself? Sometimes I think that is a huge factor.) I hope you’ve been able to find a GD support group or something online. I know they were lifesavers for me when I failed the first screening test. *hugs*
Lynne on December 10, 2008 at 7:04 am.
Doctors are just plain weird, and sometimes too ‘doctorish’ (my own made up word). My brother’s girlfriend is expecting her first child, and when she asked the doc. about an epidural the doctor told her they were going to try a ‘natural’ birth first!!! HUH what’s un-natural about an epidural, un-natural would be having a tooth pulled without Novocain.
You’ll be fine and do great!