So here is the deal, I’ve always wanted to be a mommy. Ever since who knows when. Whenever I would play “house” with other kids, I always wanted to be the mom. I think everyone perceived this as me being really bossy and maybe that is true, but I think it just shows that I am meant to be a mother :)

So when I first saw the faint second line appear on the pregnancy test (which I also totally saturated with urine because I’m a messy pee-er apparently.) I took on Saturday evening, I opened the bathroom door and said “Gene, can you come here and look at this?”

Yes, those were my exact words. That is exactly how I told him. Hah.

So while Gene stood there, holding the test that I just urinated on dangerously close to his face and eyes while examining it, I paced around the bathroom with my mind racing. I mean, this was actually the very first time I’ve ever peed on a stick. Except for maybe a couple times in Girl Scout Camp where I peed on real woodland sticks.

We both immediately got on our computers and started researching HPT results. We found this awesome site, wwww.peeonastick.com. Amazing! I can’t even believe someone put that much research and thought into the whole thing but it helped tremendously. We ran out to Dollar Tree and bought 5 (five) HPTs from there. The one I originally took was a First Response, which is about $13 for a 3 pack. The Dollar Tree ones are exactly that, a dollar!

So running into Dollar Tree to buy HPTs is a lot like what I think being a 14 year old boy and running into the drug store to buy condoms is like. I was a little nervous and shy about the whole thing. But then I actually felt kind of proud. We decided to walk around and see if there was anything else we needed so, you know, we didn’t have to check out with the cashier with only pregnancy tests. While browsing the isles, it is only OBVIOUS that we would run into someone we know. I am not kidding!! I turn to look down one isle and my very good friend Malinda is standing there, looking at candles. The first thing through my mind is:

Oh no! This cannot be happening! Should I run? Should I hide? What do I do?

And I said hey. Or maybe she saw me first. I can’t remember. All I remember is that the whole time we’re talking, I’m thinking about how I really just wanna go buy my HPTs and get out of there! We eventually walk off to leave, grab 5 tests off of the shelf and check out. The cashier could not scan the items fast enough! I kept staring behind me, hoping Malinda wasn’t walking up behind me. It was all hilarious and stressful at the same time.

So we took the Dollar Tree one and it was positive, though even more faint than the previous one. That evening I decide at the last minute that I really want Chinese food, so we go out to a chinese buffet way out in the city. It was delicious and I had a wonderful time with my husband! I couldn’t eat as much as usual. Nerves, I’m sure. My sister and her friend came over that evening after we got back and we played some Mario Kart and watched Harold & Kumar Escape from Guantanamo Bay.

We took another First Response and Dollar Tree one the next morning with my first morning urine and both were exactly the same as the day before. The rest of the weekend was a blur of me wondering, thinking, getting excited, denying, etc. I called my doctor first thing on Tuesday morning (Monday was Labor Day) and got an appointment in the afternoon at 1:20.

I held my pee all day and I was on edge all morning! They gave me a cup and had me pee in it. I actually OVERFILLED the cup and had to dump some out. Oh my goodness! It felt so good to pee, haha. So I spoke with my doctor and she confirmed the results were positive. She gave me some basic information and estimated my due date is May 11th as of my last period (August 4th). She set me up an appointment for my first ultrasound for September 12th and my first OBGYN appointment for October 8th.

At this point we’re estimating that I’m about 4 weeks pregnant as of my last period. I think Monday I will be 5 weeks along. I guess they were hoping I would be about 6 weeks for my first Ultrasound and I’ll be around 9 weeks when I first meet the OBGYN. I’m trying to really take care of myself so that my pregnancy goes smoothely with no complications. I’m trying to eat better and drinking lots of calcium and water. The only symptoms I’ve experienced so far is light menstrual-like cramping off and on for the last week. I also started having really, really sore boobs in the last few days. Tiredness is starting to set in but I haven’t quite gotten to the exhausted part yet. No morning sickness, though I know it is still very early. Gonna keep my fingers crossed on that one!

Gene and I are so excited. Gene has been a wonderful husband through this all. His excitement makes me excited. His positive outlook gives me a positive outlook. He is going to be such a wonderful Daddy! I know he is going to love this baby with all of his being. He always shows it. Seeing him so happy about this makes my heart skip a beat with excitement and joy.

I will be so happy when the first trimester is behind us, so I can breathe a little sigh of relief. Every evening before I go to bed, I breathe a sigh of relief that everything appears to still be going okay. We love our little blastocyst to pieces right now, and look forward to the next week when he/she becomes an embryo ;)

As a new mother, I am looking forward to devoting my life to my baby. I am looking forward to all of the things that a lot of women complain about, things that I will probably someday complain about as well. The 2 AM feedings, the diapers, the cries, the head bumps, everything. Every little detail. And of course, the happy times too. The first sound (other than a cry lol), the first smile, the first step, the first laugh, the first words. All of these things. I’m ready to sacrifice some of the fun in my life in order to love and raise a child. I’ve had a lot of fun over the last 10 years with Gene and I know we are going to have a lot of fun in the coming years, though it may be slightly different. And I don’t regret a thing. I think I’ve had a great time and I’m ready to take the next step in our lives together.

So, I’m glad you all are here to join me on this journey to motherhood. Because I am just ecstatic!