Mothering Hormones Raging

It’s amazing. I’ve been sitting here, clicking through blogs left and right. Stopping at all of the mommy-blogs out there. Reading their stories of child birth, looking at absolutely adorable baby pictures, reading their reviews on various baby products like pacifiers, bottles, diapers and breast pumps. And I’m sitting here, staring off into space, thinking of how I want to be in that position right now. Out of absolutely no where I began to feel this huge and overwhelming sense of grown-upness. And I was thinking about how I love taking care of people/animals/things. I love taking care of my dogs. I admit, my patience runs short sometimes.. but doesn’t that happen to us all? Overall, I love my dogs as if they are my children. I talk to them like they are real people and I give them kisses on their foreheads ALL of the time.

Ehh.. just silly hormones talkin’, I know. Heck, I’m not even married yet :) And from the looks of things, I may not be married until Spring of 2008. And I want to be “ready” when we decide to have a baby. I want to be financially ready. But, when will we ever be “ready”? I guess when we both decide that is what we want. We both know that we DO for sure want children but I guess getting the timing right is the main thing. I had a nightmare a few nights ago that my doctor told me that since I’ve been on birth control pills for over 3 years that it would take over 3 years to clean out myself and become fertile again. As crazy as it sounds, I woke up in quite a panic! Silly, I know. Like I said, hormones.

I’m gonna go do something other than sit here and read and dream and increase my chances of severe carpal tunnel syndrome later on down the road. I know dishes need to be done and dogs need to be petted. Oh and I totally need to do some weight lifting and leg exercises today. My knee is feeling a little bit better. Gene and I are going to sign up for Gym memberships this week sometime. Today was our 3rd weigh in since January 1st when our Biggest Loser competition began. So far, I’ve lost 10.5 lbs since January 1st :) I am at my all time lowest weight right now, which honestly, is not that low at all!