My ears were (hopefully) temporarily damaged at the show last night. I have the most awful ringing in my ears that never, ever goes away. I wont be back until it is gone. I can be found in a dark room, facing the corner, ripping every strand of hair out, one by one.
Candy :: Oct.26.2006 :: Daily :: 2 Comments »
Back on my diet, full swing. Not going to cheat at all, at least not for a week or two. I have to get back into the “groove” before I can start to allow myself little indulgences. I need to get back into the mindset that food is merely that, food. Nothing more. It is such a social issue with me, eating. And I need to break the habit, badly. Back to chewing my food slowly and trying to enjoy each and every bite. Baby steps.
Tomorrow is Gene and I’s 100th monthiversary! Yes, I can hardly believe it as well. I still remember clearly when we were somewhere around our 20th monthiversary and thinking, 100 seems soooo far away. Like it would be forever until we reached that point. Here I am, 100 monthiversary and been engaged for 4 months. Getting married in less than a year. Which, by the way, the wedding planning has been stagnant. Gotta get back on that so we can figure out what exactly we are doing!
Anyway, gotta get to sleep. It is nearing midnight and I must get up early tomorrow. Layla, Gene and I are going to see The Forecast tomorrow night!
Emma will not stop puking. I have no idea what the problem is but every morning when I go to let her out of her crate, there is vomit on her bedding :( I am frustrated because I have no idea what could be making her sick. I haven’t really given her any different food than what I’ve been giving her for over a year now! And it is really disgusting looking vomit, not the normal just throwing up food type stuff. I know this is gross but I am really starting to get worried about her. She doesn’t act any different and she is still eating as she normally does, so I have no idea!
My last load of laundry is in the wash and it is only 11:42 AM! I am so awesome. And the roast is in the crock pot :) Totally excited about dinner! And I am starting my diet today. My goal is to walk 45 minutes to 1 hour every night this week. I am going to try my best to actually do this! I want to start losing weight again like I was before. It’s been a few months since I’ve lost anything and now it is just depressing :(
Anyway, gotta go do housework type stuff so that I can relax for the last half of my Sunday. I’ve been pretty ill with a cold and it is finally starting to drain (yuck) so I think I’m on the road to recovery as far as that goes. Maybe Gene will want to go ride bikes? We haven’t ridden our bikes in so long. Like.. once. Crazy.
Candy :: Oct.22.2006 :: Daily, Dogs :: 2 Comments »
I figured I could come write up an entry while my dog’s food is steeping. Yes, I said that right. See, I got a bag of Veg-to-bowl to supplement into their diet and this is the first time I’ve tried it. So far its coming together nicely and looking very nutritious. I spoil my dogs. But I love them and I want them to be healthy!
We walked the 5k for Race for the Cure on Saturday. It was a nice walk, despite how cold it was. I was glad that I was actually able to do it considering the many back problems I’ve had over the last month or so. I was actually ok today, too.. no soreness or anything. And I actually went bowling last night! Well, I only bowled about 1 1/2 games before I had to sit out.. The pain was starting to hit and I didn’t want to over do it.
Not much else going on as of late. I went through a few weeks of emotional issues but I feel like I’ve come through it and I feel like a much stronger person. Thank goodness for Gene. Without him I don’t know where I would be or what I would do. You know, I’ve met so many women in my life who discourage marriage and always have bitter things to say about it, but I am sooo excited to be marrying my best friend and the love of my life. We make the best team there ever was and I look forward to spending the rest of my life with him.
Well.. I’ve overdone myself with this going-on-4-paragraphs post. I better end it here before I get a reputation or something ;) Gonna go have some me-time and relax in the bath tub with a book. I hope the water heater will make the water steaming hot!!
Today was a crazy bipolar day. It was mostly good. I’d say.. around 90% good. But then I remembered I forgot to do something pretty darn important at work. Something that was supposed to be done on the 1st. eek :( So I’ve been kind of beating myself up about it ever since. Luckily we got “it” done and I feel a lot better now, but still pissed off at myself. My memory sucks. Gene is right, I need to download some kind of calendar software or something! Or maybe just set Outlooks calendar up. Need to plan and organize better.
Gene and Layla are studying in the kitchen. I just got done with dishes and putting my candles away. Took the trash out and all of that. I think we’re having leftovers for dinner, which doesn’t sound good at all right now :( I’ll tell you what sounds good.. PIZZA. Hah, riiight. I wanna order pizza. Figaro’s sounds super yummy. Or even Mazzios. We are soo used to eating the $5 Hot ‘n Ready pizzas from Little Caesars that I really want to just ORDER pizza. Have it delivered. I don’t even know if we’ve ever had delivered pizza since we’ve lived in this house. And how fun is it to call and have something DELIVERED when you live in a new house? Totally fun. And I have yet to experience that :( Poor me.
Anyway I am going to go think about what I want to eat. I know eating out is bad but whatever, I don’t particularly care right now.
[edit] I ended up running to KFC to take advantage of their Chicken Fried Steak Wednesday! You get a chicken fried steak, 2 sides and a biscuit for $1.99! Tell me there isn’t a better deal than that?
Candy :: Oct.04.2006 :: Daily, Workplace :: 5 Comments »
This is my tribute to all of the women who are currently fighting this demon and to all of the women we have lost to this deadly disease. Your strength and courage is astounding.
I will be walking the 5k again this year for our local Race for the Cure.
Candy :: Oct.03.2006 :: Misc :: 1 Comment »
Have you ever had a nightmare so horrible that you woke up in a complete and horrible mood? Because I did. It was quite possibly one of the worst nightmares I’ve had in a really, really long time. I’m doing any and everything I can currently to shake this bad feeling I have inside and to get over it. I know it was just a dream and it’s not real but when it is that vivid, I can’t explain it. Also, because it was so awful I feel like I’ve had next to no sleep :(
I just hope I can get past this today. I can’t go through a whole day at work feeling like this!!
Candy :: Oct.03.2006 :: Daily :: 1 Comment »
